Rachel has no complaints; her art, family and friends have made her life whole, she feels truly blessed and does not fear for her future. “My life is so full, it’s just so wonderful. I would like to see my grandchildren mature and be a part of their lives for as long as possible. But I don’t feel that cloud hanging over my head.”
I was devastated. I was mourning the loss of an unborn child but didn’t want Gary to know. He was going through enough and I didn’t want him to feel worse because of me. So I would secretly throw perfectly clean clothes, hit pillows and randomly stop in parking lots to cry, scream and feel sorry for myself. It was my way of dealing (Granted, anyone who drove by me while I was throwing my tantrum most likely thought I was crazy but in a way I was).